Let's try this again

So a year and a half ago, I hit my lowest weight in a long time - 235! At that point, I felt much more comfortable with my weight and had a nice sense of satisfaction after hitting my goal. Unfortunately, along with those feelings came something not so great - complacency. I started relaxing my dietary restrictions, began enjoying snacks and junk food a little more than "occasionally," and slowly worked my way back up to where I started. A year and a half later, I'm pretty much back to my starting weight when I turned 30. I'm not happy about it, but it's nice that it took me so much longer to gain the weight back than lose it.

So here I am back up to 265-ish, feeling fat, lazy, achey, and all those crappy things that overweight, out of shape people feel. My diet has devolved into a mix between binge-eating and self destruction. The worse part is that I *know* how bad I am eating now, and exactly what I would need to do to lose weight again. I am completely aware of how much sugar and junk I am eating all the time, but without motivation I just have no willpower. So let's create some motivation.

I'm doing it all over again. My low-carb diet lost me almost 40 pounds last time I tried it, so let's stick with that. My goal is less than 100 carbs a day, but I'm really going to make an effort to minimize that (50 or less). With a hard limit of 100 carbs, it was easy to justify late day snacks - "I have only eaten 70 today, and each of these cookies are 12 carbs, so I can afford 2!" - but this time I am going to stay as low as possible each day. I also want to place a larger emphasis on greens - fresh and raw spinach, broccoli, asparagus, and my new friend kale. My goal is not just to lose weight, but to eat healthier too (you would think these would go hand-in-hand, but it's possible to lose weight in unhealthy ways).

I'm actually on day 2 right now. Yesterday was great, I actually ate less than 40 carbs for the whole day. Today I have already had about as much just with lunch (mostly thanks to a sweetened yogurt I had), but I should be able to keep dinner low. One thing I am not looking forward to is the blood-sugar switch and the fatigue and headaches that come with it. I read back through my first couple blogs where I talk about that some, and it doesn't sound as bad as I remember (it's nice being able to motivate myself with my own past experiences). Hopefully by keeping my carb counts very low, I can sort of "power through" those problems. I have a feeling this first week or 2 is going to suck though simply because of how bad I have been eating.

I'm going to try to get new charts and numbers posted ASAP so I can track my changes.